I’ve been struggling to find the words
I’m somewhere between wanting to be left alone and needing to be heard
So I speak to strangers
If I’m a bother they can walk away
Might falter with the first few steps until they shake the weight
And if I’m gunna stay
I need to catch a break
I don’t mean with daily dealings it’s this squishy, rotting brain
I’m like a slow burning candle you lit back in the day
Flickering between going out and growing strong to beat my wake
I’ve buried myself in the ocean just out of reach of coastal trees
I watch the changing seasons on their leaves like tv screens
If I’m ever distant but you need me; swear I’ll give myself the bends
I’m just below the surface with my shadow, we’ve become the best of friends
I used to run from all the pain; leave it boxed up in my head
They calcified so I split them open
Realized that garnets lied within
Eryn Mackenzie 2020
Eryn Mackenzie 